Before I was pregnant I heard pregnant women saying that their pregnancy doesn’t feel real. To me this seemed a little crazy, like, your belly is the size of a watermelon, doesn’t get much more real than that! But now I can totally understand. Just a couple months ago Katelyn said something like, “When my baby was inside me…” and Leah corrected her, saying, “You mean when Hailey was inside you,” but Katelyn still didn’t want to say it that way. I guess even after it’s born, it’s crazy to believe that the baby you have in your arms is the same one that was living inside of you for nine months. I can totally see that.
Tonight Leah and I sat on her couch for awhile, poking at my belly, trying to make the baby move and trying to decipher various body parts (and now that I write that, it sounds really weird. Must be a sister thing…) Picturing a little head or foot in there and knowing exactly where it is makes it that much more real. I guess I have to live in the moment and not in the future because really, with the first baby especially, you have nooo idea what it will be like. And since Kent and I will be moving, it’s not even like I can imagine what our day to day lives will be like since we’ll be in a different house, different city, Kent will have a different job.
The other night, Kent came home from work, woke me up and talked to me for awhile and the baby started going nutso, moving more wildly than I’ve ever felt it before, which was adorable. I would love it if the baby was a little daddy’s girl/boy. I don’t like those stories about women who get really jealous after the baby is born of all the attention the baby gets from their husband. Or the stories about people’s relationships changing for the worse and becoming totally stressed after having a baby. When I hear about them or think about them I just have to remind myself that I’m still going to be the same person that I have been for the past 27 years after the baby is born, not suddenly turn into a maniac. That’s the plan, anyways.
I would like our relationship to stay exactly how it is, but I asked Kent a while back if he thought our relationship would change apres baby and he said “yes.” When I asked how, he shrugged and said, “More love.” We have a ton of love now, but more of it sounds just lovely to me.
And I will leave you with my 30 week baby bump:
And my question for the mothers and fathers out there: How would you say you, or your relationship changed post-baby? (The baby-less can chime in too here, of course!)
























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