For a person who is definitely a homebody, I sure do seem to move around a lot. About seven months ago, Kent and I moved to Toronto for his job, and while I think where we are is okay, I would not say that I have thrived here. I have such a strong sense of what home is, that I’m not sure anywhere else could ever take it’s place. The job market in my field is depressing right now, but it’s a good sign that I am wanting it bad enough that I am still hoping and trying to get in. For me anyways, it’s hard to feel good about my life a lot of the time when I’m working in a coffee shop, even when it’s a cozy place and I harbour some serious love for some of the old men regulars whose faces light up when they see that I’m working, who ask, “do you have a few minutes?” and point to the empty chair next to them.
I feel like this recession has hit me hard, and it’s very frustrating at times, especially since I had a good, secure job before I decided to go back to school last year. I take the blame for it, I knew that it’s a tough field to get into right now, and really, I could only have been working since September. In the grand scheme of my life, three months is not very long. In the grand scheme of the past three months however, it’s forever. But I know that when it does happen, I will be very happy with what I’m doing, and even more grateful because of this extra time it took to get there. I know there are a lot of people who just work to pay the bills and don’t actually enjoy it, and I’m not willing to do this with my life (but Micaela, isn’t this what you are doing right now? Good point…) Lately some opportunities have come up and while they are not THE opportunity I am waiting for, they are new paths to help get me there and new ways to feel satisfied and good about what I’m doing with my life. So I’m excited about that.
When I look back on times in the past, I think “you know, you had it really good and I wonder if you even knew it?” I’m sure you know the feeling. I bet that’s how I’ll feel about this, what I have right now, someday. Maybe I’m not making tons of money, but I’m learning a lot about a line of work that Kent is interested in going into someday, and there is a lot I can help him with now. Maybe my boss is not a pleasure to work for, but I am learning a lot about how not to treat people, ever. I’m learning how to not let people’s actions get under my skin and ruin my mood or my day. I’m finding other things to fulfill me that I wouldn’t have found otherwise. I’m able to define myself for who I am, not as a person in a particular role in life.
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I know exactly how you feel! I moved to Guelph with Tyler while he was finishing his Masters. It is SO hard to move away from family when they’ve always been right there your whole life. I know about the job thing too. Don’t fret though! It took me 5 months to find a job in my field and I’m sure that you’ll find something soon!
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This is such a hard thing to deal with- especially while you’re essentially trying to build your whole life back up but aren’t really sure where your foundation is.
At the same time, as a homebody I’m sure you’ll find your feet too, and your new routine. It’s hard though, this was my summer & pounding the pavement can be outright demoralizing. My best thing I did was building tiny little wins into my day, feeling like you’re succeeding in small ways on an ongoing basis can help you keep your chin up.
Feel better & good luck!
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Hey you
Totally know what your going through
It is difficult but its a learning proceSs and we are learning so much about ourselves
I know you’ll get a teaching job and you’ll be awesome
And I hear about crummy job just to pay the bills you never want to be that person
Geeze I was just thinking last night gosh I am 26 and I am totally not where I thought I would be… I don’t have the job I want feel like I am going in circles working these silly jobs to make ends meet.. Mean while my plan was to have the job… A house…and yeah those definetly havnt happen… The key word is yet!
We all have to work those crummy jobs and sometimes be in a place we aren’t comfortable being in… But you grow and as individual and you will be a better person because of it.
Ok so I have totally been rambling on and don’t know if I am making any sense at this point lol
Just remember life throws at you stuff that you can deal with… Not having that job just yet is a little hiccup in the road
That’s the way it goes sometimes, and it’s never fun when you’re in that phase. Sometimes you gotta buckle under and just do what has to be done to pay the bills. But it’s so sad to me when people give up even trying for more and just resign themselves to working a miserable job. Always keep reaching for more and eventually you’ll find something there to grasp.
5 blonds, Dear Lord this must be heaven !
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This is exactly how I feel about my job right now. Thankfully I also have good benefits and making enough money to help me deal with the fact that I’m not loving what I do. I’m having to look at everything and look at the positive things I can learn – like actually having attention to detail. I’ve always only ever excelled at things I can do with my eyes closed and quit at things that I wasn’t good at and in some ways it has made me a failure (obviously not overall) but with this job, if I just push myself, I can fix that. So I hear ya!!
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