Sometimes I feel like there is no point to me blogging these days. The best blog posts to me are the ones that are open and honest like this one or many of this girl’s. Since so many of our readers are people that I know in real life it’s often easier just to gloss over the details that aren’t pretty or happy.
But you know what? I also love the blogs that just post pretty pictures of perfect lives because I like to believe that some people’s lives really are that way all the time. I mean it’s okay to be happy and to blog about that. But not when it’s just not how you feel. Even the most positive blogger, I like to think, reaches that point where they have to say, you know what? Sometimes life is HARD.
Sometimes life is hard.
I am an underemployed girl feeling like life is more stagnant that I want it to be.
I am a girl who knows I can get a lot more out of life than I am, right now. I am a girl who knows that I can put into life a lot more than I am right now.
I am a girl who feels my husband’s emotions, both the good ones and the bad ones, way too much and lets them affect me instead of just being me, which brings circles of positivity (which are wonderful) or negativity (not so wonderful.)
I am a girl who lets feelings of being unwanted by a friend ruin her day.
I am a girl who sometimes finds it hard to trust and sometimes finds it impossible.
I’m a girl who looks towards the future instead of living in the present, which really, is all I ever have.
I am a girl who wastes precious seconds of her life with these things that I know are not me, not really, or not the me I would prefer to be.
I’m aching to write about all of the good things so, I don’t know, so you won’t feel sorry for me? So I won’t feel sorry for myself? Because something in me says you shouldn’t end a blog sadly? Sometimes life is good and sometimes life is great but right now I’m not talking about that. I’m talking about how sometimes, life is HARD. You know?
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You sure hit the nail on the head here. So much gets thrown at us in life and sometimes you just can’t gloss over it. Honesty, especially to yourself, is important!!! Just keep hanging in there for those good and great times to come!
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i could not agree with you more right now .. i am in college .. i work 2 jobs and my bf and i broke up 2 weeks ago .. honestly ? i am at a complete loss as to why the whole break up even happened in the first place and i am struggling with it like crazy .. i wish i could just more on .. but i cant .
But like you said all those people who always blog about great stories .. make it difficult to keep up with them .. because when im feeling down i dont want to see how GREAT everyone else’s lives are .. and maybe thats a bad trait .. but it is what it is .
And that is why i havent been blogging recently .. because in all honesty things arent going that great .. and i didnt feel like anyone would want to listen to me complain .. lol but after reading this .. it has kind of inspired me .. hopefully i’ll write something soon and get back into all of this again
Thanks !
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Oh I know. I so know. I’ve refrained from writing quite a number of blog posts in the recent past because I didn’t want to bring people down… but I’m slowly remembering the reason I started blogging in the first place – for MY peace of mind. I’m happy you wrote this and I don’t feel sorry for you… in fact I only feel love and understanding for you so I hope that writing this helped you feel better and that if it didn’t, you can write more.
HUGS!
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I am in awe of how brutally honest this post is, I feel like I can relate to it on so many levels right now.
Today? Life is hard for me.
This post encourages me to write a similar one.
Leah´s last blog ..When life is hard.
You know what though, I think its really nice to hear (read?) raw emotions, to know that those people who seem so perfect are real, have bad days, weeks, months even! It makes you so much more personable because each and every reader can completely relate.
I read another blog today that yours reminded me of http://www.healthytippingpoint.com/2009/11/things-to-do-more-often-17.html which I thought was a really valuable point, that is so easily overlooked.
Hope things brighten up for you!
-K
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On the outside everything always looks rosy, but not always from the inside. It’s life we all go through it. We all feel what you feel, trust me. I feel the underemployed thing too. Everyday when I go home from supplying I feel, “Am I not good enough to get a real job?” But I just try to think about all the good things in my life, My family, my Dana and my FRIENDS (ie YOU)! And then life is better, work is work. That’s all it is. You life is what counts, and you my dear have a lovely life. Love you and see you this weekend.
Its just like on Greys, when the call the ‘happy’ people ‘Bright and Shiny’. Unfortunately everyday isn’t bright and shiny. I started my blog to be a personal outlet, for me. Sometimes still I forget that. I write what I THINK other people want to hear. But most of the time I try to stay true to myself, and be honest. I cannot stand it when I fall into the trap of being ‘Fake’ when I am interacting with people, so I am definitely not ever going to be fake on my blog.
Its hard, because I know some of our readers may be sad, when they know we are sad (ahem Oma, Opa) but the best part about that is they are the people that are always going to love us unconditionally, even if we aren’t Bright and Shiny all the time.
Love you!
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Touché, Micaela. Is it just me, or is November just a really crappy month altogether? (Minus Leah’s bday of course).
At least it helps us be appreciate of the good times and the people we have in our lives!