Nope, not baby having nightmares, mommy having nightmares!
Ever since Hailey was born I have been having one reoccurring and really weird nightmare. It can happen at any time of the night and or day, whenever I am sleeping. I’m think it is the result of being overtired.
Here’s how it plays out.
I am sleeping, but think I am feeding Hailey. I half wake up and think that I feel her leg and then try to find the rest of her body, because in my mind I was feeding her but we both fell asleep and now I can’t find her! I will literally throw away all pillows and blankets to find the baby and then wake up allt he way to realize that I was dreaming and I wasn’t actually feeding her.
Everytime I’m sleeping and wake up this is how I am woken up. It gives me such anxiety.
Last night I was treated to a new nightmare. I dreamed that I had been feeding Hailey and put her down to sleep in the living room but then I woke up and there was blankets and spit-up all over her face, so I freaked out and jumped off the couch. Except I actually did this: I jumped out of my BED and thought in my sleepy state that I was in the living room and started freaking out because I couldn’t find the light switch and my baby was suffocating but I couldn’t see her to find her! I ran into my dresser, had no idea where I was and almost fell over. This woke Scott up and I’m pretty sure he thought I was crazy. It took me a bit to realize that I was a) actually in my bedroom and b) Hailey was sleeping soundly in her cradle at the foot of our bed.
(A sleeping Hailey at 5 days old)
Any other moms have this happen to them?
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The dreams reflect the normal fear that all mothers have about not going a good enough job…failing. I used to dream about forgetting the kids places… They will go away as you gain trust that you’re an excellent mommy and she’s not that breakable or losable!
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I think it’s the right of passage for moms. If I had a nickle for eveytime I put a mirror under my first daughters nose the first year of her life….
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Those dreams are so incredibly normal…scary beyond belief but normal. My brother lost a child to SIDS so my dreams were always similar to yours – about my daughter suffocating somewhere and I couldn’t find her or get to her. They DO ease up as you get more comfortable in your role as mother.
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I think every mother has those dreams!
I used to have them where I lost Thomas somewhere, or he died and I couldn’t do anything but stand there and watch it happen, it’s awful!!
I dont have them as much with Liam though, so that’s something to look forward too.. lol
I can relate! My continuely dream was that I was feeding Dexter late at night and fell asleep in the rocking chair and would drop him. I remember waking up in such a panic. It scared me to death. Thank goodness, the dream finely went away and I never dropped him. Your not alone…
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I used to have dreams that Harry was in the bed with us and I would feel around for him for a second until I realized it was a dream!
Thes dreams sounds absolutely horrible- even if they are normal. I hope they go away soon
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Yikes, that sounds really scary Kate. I’m sure it reflects your existing worries though and that if you are able to just see them as dreams and something that’s not a possibility, the dreams will eventually stop too (thing is you really have to believe that it’s not possible, k?)
Hoping they go away soon xoxo
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